I cannot explain how I am feeling right now, desolate, sad and heartbroken now that Bob has gone from me. His ashes were interred yesterday (18th July 2015) on his 90th birthday and this is the first day ever without him. Having his ashes has been a comfort for me, he was with me and I wasn't alone. However, that was not fair on his family and it would have been selfish of me to keep him.

Bob would not want me to be selfish. Throughout his whole life he always put the feelings of others before himself and that is what I had to do but I just did not expect the tears to flow like they are right now. I miss this wonderful man so much and I know that I shall never again be truly happy as long as I live.